SUICIDE BY COP
Origins of the term "Suicide-by-cop"
- I have dreams about the shooting, usually the same one over and over. I just don’t think I can continue doing the job if I can’t find a way to deal with all the bitterness, cynicism, anger, resentment, and fatigue.
Sergeant Tom F.Longmonth Police DepartmentI went to work the next day and I couldn't look at anybody - couldn't talk to them. You start having nightmares, waking up sweating and you want to go to the bathroom and puke. It wasn't until a year later that I was able to talk about the incident in any detail.
Officer Paul B.Sacramento County Sheriff's DepartmentToday, whenever I try to recount the incident in Sonoma County to a civilian, they usually have one of two emotional responses: they are either severely critical that I needed to kill a mental patient, or they think I failed in not killing the madman.
Deputy Brian K.Sonoma County Sheriff's Department
- Within two minutes of putting the pistol down, I was so glad to be alive. I was just overjoyed.
Gordon K. - SbC SurvivorSpokane, WashingtonI’m so sorry. I knew if I passed away, I wanted him [police officer] to know that I’m sorry.
17-year old SbC SurvivorOxnard, CaliforniaI knew that if I made contact with the police, I could force them to kill me.
Randall F.Luynchburg, Virginia
What is SbC?
How is SbC determined?
- It is difficult to predict whether a reciprocal conciliation between officer(s) and surviving loved ones is possible or even necessary. Because suicide-by-cop purposely involves another human being to complete the act, it is a method of suicide that affects victims from both sides of the badge. This concept may be difficult for next of kin to understand, but it is nonetheless deeply realized by the officer involved.
- She [Mondello] used me to kill herself. After the shooting, Vincent pursued counseling. Ten years later, he felt compelled to write to the Mondello family. It was a difficult letter to write. Denise Mondello's mother responded to him by phone. When I heard her voice, I broke down crying. After ten years, I was still hurting inside. She was very comforting.
Friends And Family Of Denise Mondello
As friends of hers, we wanted to extend our condolences to you. We know you must be hurting and going through a rough time. Our feelings and love go out to you. Friends of Denise Mondello